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Summer,at last

11 June - 14 June; Bangkok,Thailand.
Departure: 09.25am
Arrive: 11.35am

15 June - 17 June; KL
July 17: Pops birthdayy :D
18 June - 18 July;Jakarta,Indonesia.
Departure: 16.15pm
Arrive:18.20pm

19 July; KL

20 July - 26 July; Perth,Australia.

27 July - 29 July;KL

30 July - 3 August; Redang,Malaysia.

3 August - forever (until further notice); KL.

5 August; School starts. Summers over :(





Leap of Faith
Friday, August 1, 2008

This week was pretty busy.
I went to Cameroon Highland with my family which was a tons a fun! (surprising eyh? i know).
We spent like 3 days in that bloody cold mountain,but was wonderful.
I got crazy and discover a new obsession. Flowers, particularly roses.
Its lame and common but seriously Roses are gorgeous, Dahlia too ishk!
They have beeeeutipuuul roses there and sell it for pretty cheap, got insane and bought like a dozen bouquets..hehe. Then a dozen of daises bouquets, and some other flowers.

The whole trip was very useful for me, the fact that i couldnt get proper internet helps me to get away from a lot of people, the only people i talked to were Jini n Nabil. It wasnt even like a real convo just text msges.

I used that trip to think about "stuff" mostly about my past that had happened to me before, stuff that i couldn't really forget, those dark times behind me, and try to let it go, im happy to say although i couldnt get over it completely at least a quarter of it is forgotten. :D
Right now im on the edge of committing, im not going to play around like i did before, bad karma not happening again, but committing means giving up and tied to something, i commit before and look where it got me. Rock Bottom. So right now this whole committing shit scares me a little i dont think ill survive another hit. But what i could commit to really did help me forget about those bad memories and i got to say i am HAPPY, im just afraid it not going to last like last time.
All this time i couldnt go on a day without thinking about it and it kills me to remember, but i just couldnt help it, im confused about what i should do, sometimes i think "maybe this could be a new beginning for me, a start where i can be really happy, something that will last? something that can give me the smile that i see on Jini's face when she talks about Apek." But sometimes i think "why would i take chances, why would i give it another chance to hurt me again, what if this will end up no where. AGAIN." sighss....

:/

xoxo,