chasing pavement.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
getting lazy and lazier to update this thing.
since ive got nothing to do and have no life whatsoever i shall write a bunch of stuff now.
umm exams are in 2 weeks..-,- so i have decided not to go out until the actual exam week, because i feel like i have to study harder and get better grades that im having right now, plus mama udah mulai ranting about nilai yg that i get isnt enough, blom lg she wants me to take full ib diploma, so yeah i think i shud stay home and do some school closure. :S
Semi is coming too.
its on the 6th of December @ Zouk.
i havent got a dress, so wtv.
and i kinda dont feel like going as much as i wanted to before.
but since i have already bought the ticket i have no choice but to ignore this mood swing of mine.
its nt cool, cuz nureen,abi,syahir is not gonna be there, so thats 3 ppl less.
but im glad jini and eryse and lysha are all coming, lucia too. :)
wooyeeaaa.
Im gonna go home soon.
Jakarta on the 21st of December that leaves me like 4 days to Xmas. :)
i cant wait to see Farell and Derio yg pastinya udah gede2.
and omgggggg Tristaaan. handsome devil. i miss himm.
i bet his like damn fatter now, aiiih chubby little thing.
i love nenek's cookies and tarts, and her brownies are the best, i just loveee cooking with her.
Then she'll be like talking about life and asking about my love life, and then i just know shes gonna mention the whole "tumbal" for religion shit. i just know. :p haha i love her.
i dont know what she's gonna say when she found out i putus with Nh. she'll b like "oh i guess it was never meant to be then! soooo whos next!" :D and mann i seriously wanna tell her about 'dy' she gives the sillest advices but i swear they make sense.. i wanna nyeritaiin ke tnt.ebbo and nukii about this fella. and see what they have to say about him. Its too bad tn.Yanti still in Germany, and shes nt coming home for xmas, shes the best :( i havnt seen her for like 7 years? omgg i miss her soo much.
New Year is gonna be fun though. Its gonna b like every other years, gue, taemin, mamas, biun,rico? maen kembang api and play cards. Sounds boring eeeh? so im planning to do something else with themm. Bandungggg!! :) wheee.
ill be leaving Jakarta on the 9th. I'm missing jini's birthday..:( fuck fuck fuck.
but ill get her summin la i guess. i know exactly what. :)
I also plan to buy a new phoneee! :D
im not sure what phone, i have to consult with my advisor, firgiant. haha he knows a lot about phones he should be like one of those "ngko2" di ambasador.
i was planning to buy LG ks 360 but like yeahh, im not sure if thats the one that i really want, so..ck. i donnooo. i want the qwerty keyboard thing though, damn cun..but yeah. well see i guess what imma get. and and and oh. were gonna marry Molly so we can have small little puppiess! heheh and we can bring it over here..yuueehhaa. mm i guess thats it, theres no other plans in Jakarta, just that. sleeping all day staying up all night :)
its shit because didit and ingga and all gonna go in november and they will be celebrating new years in KL. tht sucks. cuz i wanted to invite them for this new year thing. so i guess thats not gonna work.
Um...
i got another 2 piercings on my ear. so i cant sleep on either side atm.
i dont know whyy i keep on getting these dreams about getting a tounge piercing, seriously it must have meant something. and tattoos too! like its soo weirdd dyeh. but i dont think im getting either one soon, im trying to be normal for one second. this 2 girls in my grade got it though.
its looks kinda cool, so so so so so myb i wanna get it. :p nggaaak tauu ah.
fck it.
umm, sooo yeah.
what else is there to say.
oh right. 'dy'
Je pensais à ce qui se passera si je ne saisis cette chose au sérieux. déception et de larmes, comme toujours. déjà en cours comme celui-ci, de parler pour un couple des semaines et puis après cette merde. Honnêtement, je suis tellement malade de ce genre de relation. J'ai décidé de fermer mon coeur et ne pas laisser quiconque obtenir près de lui, déjà rompu de façon trop ce que le point de fixation si elle va obtenir son nouveau rompu. J'ai donc rencontré ce gars, il est gentil et aimable et tout, mais encore une fois que la façon dont ils sont à l'origine. et je l'aime et je pense que je commence à lui Sayang. qui n'est pas une bonne chose parce que la possibilité qu'il ne serez jamais sentir de la même façon, si j'essaie de mon mieux pour oublier de lui, mais son putain de disque.tous mes ami dit qu'il est bon et il n'est pas comme les autres garçons que j'ai en date. mais je suis toujours à la peur d'ouvrir et de donner à cette chose une chance. pas la mention Je pense qu'il a encore en amour avec sa dernière petite amie, ce qui rend impossible l'existence de deux d'entre nous. Je sais qu'il ne fonctionnera jamais sur .. même si au fond je me sens comme il peut être celui qui peut vraiment me sortir de ce cauchemar. Je veux considérer si lent (si jamais il travaille), et obtenir le meilleur potentiel de celle-ci.
my achieved goals (all credits goes to my pelawak. You know who you are)
- i stopped smoking :)
- i stopped drinking :)
- i feel like im a better person
- i stopped being a spoiled child
- i am more focused on my studies.
- ive got more scarfs
- i dont need my knight in shining armor! ive got my Princesses and Princes in lousy jacket!
- i learned to forgive.
:D yeahh suckers. betchaaa ur jealousssss. oooo yeah.
theres nothing left to say, i guess.
everyone is out having fun with their "apelan"
im home drowning in french grammars and english literature work.
it can never get better than this. =.=
byee awh.
my achieved goals (all credits goes to my pelawak. You know who you are)
- i stopped smoking :)
- i stopped drinking :)
- i feel like im a better person
- i stopped being a spoiled child
- i am more focused on my studies.
- ive got more scarfs
- i dont need my knight in shining armor! ive got my Princesses and Princes in lousy jacket!
- i learned to forgive.
:D yeahh suckers. betchaaa ur jealousssss. oooo yeah.
theres nothing left to say, i guess.
everyone is out having fun with their "apelan"
im home drowning in french grammars and english literature work.
it can never get better than this. =.=
byee awh.
