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11 June - 14 June; Bangkok,Thailand.
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July 17: Pops birthdayy :D
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Departure: 16.15pm
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19 July; KL
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27 July - 29 July;KL
30 July - 3 August; Redang,Malaysia.
3 August - forever (until further notice); KL.
5 August; School starts. Summers over :(
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shitology
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
its so shitfuck annoying when you think about those days when you were younger and you had different kind of problems, like when 3rd grade best friend decided to fuck you up by taking over the whole baking thing and be the head cheaf.
or when your teacher from 2nd grade decided to send you out because you were passing notes in class talking about which girl dared to go and ruined your day by talking to this pathetic guy in your class youve been crushing on the whole year. Ah yes, the good old day.
its so ironic, how then you wished you were older and get to do the things older people do.
and when you are older you wished that you can go back in time and be the younger people.
elementary was a blast. damn.
middle school was pretty darn cool too.
high school, supposedly the best years of your life, its pretty..unique.
so far, high school on average is mostly about arguments.
always about, who is being too selfish or too ignorant about things.
not only with friends, also with teachers.
one is blaming the other, there is no end to it.
i wished life could be simpler, like when you dont like someone you go up to them and say "i dont like you"
you can always do that ofc but it would be out of the norm. wouldnt it?
the only thing that concerns me atm is only studies and friends, family, i think..
i dont really care about the last one, honestly i dont even feel like i need to put that there.
i cant really say much because i know there are a lot of people out there waking up everyday found themselves stuck in a family, in an enviorment that is absolutely destructive, beaten up everyday, forced to do things they dont want to do. anways, back to the concerns list.
hmm the only other thing i can think of is love, but man dont even get me started babbling about that shit.
i wont, one thing though, its probably something i dont want to deal with ever again, and if God decides otherwise ill be damned.
my family is pretty, something.
i cant say that i am not happy, i mean they give me what i want and stuff and i am blessed to be in a family that can afford things and shit.
but most of the time, i just feel like i cant wait to get out of this house.
i cant stand the screaming, nagging, complaints, comparisons, blah.
my friends are the best though, its probably the only thing thats keeping me sane, holy damn.
but then as much as i want to keep them till the end of time i know its not gonna happen.
reffering to my previous post about hope.
every second of every minute of every hour, we are all dying.
and its a pity how every minute of my ever hour of my everday does not get better but worse.
we imagined ourselves having a good life in the future and achieving goals and shit, but most people dont really get the kinda life they want to have.
vwhatever.
life sucks and then you die, i'd be lucky.
going through everyday realizing you are living your life without the person that matters,
noticing the smallest thing you see reminds you of them, grasping the memory and before you know it its another day. the same colorless.cold.empty day. just like every other day.
i have encountered a lot of people in my life that confuses me and sometimes amuse me.
like ive seen friends backstabbing each other and lovers cheating on each other.
it is honesly amazing to see people so damn heartless, its like theyre barely have feelings.
ofc, im not perfect, none of us are angels. im pretty sure though i do think about how others would feel when im about to do something.
id like to believe whatever it is they are saying before was like spur-of-the-moment thing where you just spit words out. i dont forgive easily, and i dont forget easily either.
i dont like it that way, but its the way it is. so yeah.
shitology
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
its so shitfuck annoying when you think about those days when you were younger and you had different kind of problems, like when 3rd grade best friend decided to fuck you up by taking over the whole baking thing and be the head cheaf.
or when your teacher from 2nd grade decided to send you out because you were passing notes in class talking about which girl dared to go and ruined your day by talking to this pathetic guy in your class youve been crushing on the whole year. Ah yes, the good old day.
its so ironic, how then you wished you were older and get to do the things older people do.
and when you are older you wished that you can go back in time and be the younger people.
elementary was a blast. damn.
middle school was pretty darn cool too.
high school, supposedly the best years of your life, its pretty..unique.
so far, high school on average is mostly about arguments.
always about, who is being too selfish or too ignorant about things.
not only with friends, also with teachers.
one is blaming the other, there is no end to it.
i wished life could be simpler, like when you dont like someone you go up to them and say "i dont like you"
you can always do that ofc but it would be out of the norm. wouldnt it?
the only thing that concerns me atm is only studies and friends, family, i think..
i dont really care about the last one, honestly i dont even feel like i need to put that there.
i cant really say much because i know there are a lot of people out there waking up everyday found themselves stuck in a family, in an enviorment that is absolutely destructive, beaten up everyday, forced to do things they dont want to do. anways, back to the concerns list.
hmm the only other thing i can think of is love, but man dont even get me started babbling about that shit.
i wont, one thing though, its probably something i dont want to deal with ever again, and if God decides otherwise ill be damned.
my family is pretty, something.
i cant say that i am not happy, i mean they give me what i want and stuff and i am blessed to be in a family that can afford things and shit.
but most of the time, i just feel like i cant wait to get out of this house.
i cant stand the screaming, nagging, complaints, comparisons, blah.
my friends are the best though, its probably the only thing thats keeping me sane, holy damn.
but then as much as i want to keep them till the end of time i know its not gonna happen.
reffering to my previous post about hope.
every second of every minute of every hour, we are all dying.
and its a pity how every minute of my ever hour of my everday does not get better but worse.
we imagined ourselves having a good life in the future and achieving goals and shit, but most people dont really get the kinda life they want to have.
vwhatever.
life sucks and then you die, i'd be lucky.
going through everyday realizing you are living your life without the person that matters,
noticing the smallest thing you see reminds you of them, grasping the memory and before you know it its another day. the same colorless.cold.empty day. just like every other day.
i have encountered a lot of people in my life that confuses me and sometimes amuse me.
like ive seen friends backstabbing each other and lovers cheating on each other.
it is honesly amazing to see people so damn heartless, its like theyre barely have feelings.
ofc, im not perfect, none of us are angels. im pretty sure though i do think about how others would feel when im about to do something.
id like to believe whatever it is they are saying before was like spur-of-the-moment thing where you just spit words out. i dont forgive easily, and i dont forget easily either.
i dont like it that way, but its the way it is. so yeah.
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